Senior Project (CAS)

My high school has a day each month where the teachers/students/clubs band together and discuss one issue facing the school. In order for our group of IB students to finish up our senior service project, we decided to join the fray for one month and discuss the topic of stress management (we felt we would have the most to say on the topic).

We spent a few meetings planning how everything would go down. We decided to split the IB students into groups of two and send them to the different classes to keep order and explain how the whole day was going to go down. We had a few students make a video to grab the classes’ attention, worked out a few bullet points to have the teachers look over, and decided on an activity for the kids to do during the hour.

On the day of the Whole Child Stress Management workshop, I was assigned to a room with another IB student, and we assisted the teacher in carrying out the event. This included explaining the instructions of the activity to the students, which were to write down what makes students stressed, taking note, then how students de-stress, also taking note. I kept track of troublemakers and maintained order while the students enjoyed the activity. Afterwards, we discussed what we had found out during the activity, and I helped clean up.

That was my contribution to the IB class’ senior project. I actually thought the event went fairly well. There were the usual amount of naysayers and “cooler-than-you” kids who felt they were above participating, but myself and my partner handled things quite well.


Service Hours Finished!

Finally finished my service hours, now I’ve rounded out the 150 hours of CAS!!

To accomplish this, I helped teachers reorganize and decorate their classrooms (adding some things that I knew would get students more engaged in reading) and wrote book reviews for high-schoolers who have difficulty finding books that interest them.

Planned and initiated activities

  1. What was your organizational process? I initially set up a plan for reviews, but I found I couldn’t stick to it. I’d find a new book somewhere, and immediately would want to write about it.
  2. What did you learn about planning and initiating activities? Was it easy? Difficult? It was a bit difficult to stick to a schedule, especially since it takes different lengths of time to read different books. Reorganizing the room was a fairly easy timeframe (9-1, usually), it was more a matter of finding the time.

Showed perseverance and commitment in activities

  1. Was perseverance or commitment difficult? Why? A bit, I would get bored of the projects and fall out of interest, but the thought of seeing them complete and looking amazing and helping students really motivated me (that, and any excuse to use my label maker).
  2. Why is showing perseverance and commitment important? Perserverance is the only reason you get out of bed in the morning. Perserverance is necessary to get through life. If you don’t have perserverance or the ability to stick to your guns, then you’ll never get anything done.

Developed new skills

  1. What new skills did you learn? I learned how to use a label maker and a spray paint / glue hybrid. I also learned a lot about faculty members, who would stop by and say hi sometimes. I also learned more about the world around me by communicating with other blogs.
  2. How could this skill be useful to you in the future? If not only for the bragging rights of saying I know people from almost fifteen different countries, these skills are useful for getting along in the real world. I’ll have to use these again in my life, undoubtedly.
  3. How does this new skill make you feel about yourself? Very good, I’m very happy to talk to people from different countries who have different viewpoints than I on certain topics. It’s always interesting.
  4. Why is it important to learn new skills? So that you become a better person than you were yesterday. 

The Empty

Sometimes, I feel a darkness inside of me.

An inky blackness that taints the world outside

In harsh red and emptiness.

Everything is far too loud, too bright,

And all I want is to be left alone forever,

Or at least until I am finished.


Any utterance of sympathy feels false.

I don’t want the touch of a familiar hand,

I just want to sit for a quiet while.

I want to hear something happy.

God, I would give anything just to laugh.

I’ve always found humor in bleak situations,

But that ability seems to have left me now.

It’s swirled down the drain

With the rest of my chuckles and giggles,

And I’ve scrabbled and screamed

And scraped my hands trying to get them back.


When I feel like this,

Like I would trade my life for some peace and quiet,

I sit still for a moment






I walk away to any place that doesn’t have a sense.

No one who knows my name or cares if they’ll see me again.

I sit.

I sit and wait.

I sit and wait until I meet with an old friend

Who I know will lead me out of this emptiness of apathy.


Everyone has met my saviour,

Though to some, they are a demon,

An avenger of hate and bad decisions.

But them and I,

We have an understanding.

I love them because they pulls me back from the edge.

They are sometimes the only one who will.




The sweet, white hot thrill of their presence throws all problems

To the wind.

They are a wake-up call that everything is not as bad as it seems,

And though the world is not pulling its punches

I cannot afford to leave the ring.

How dare this emptiness

This apathy

Try to take the sun from me?

My long walks amid nature?

The taste of ice cream and chocolate and carbs?

I am so angry

That I am whole again.

I’m sorry

But life is beautiful,

The stars are magnificent,

There is a sense of everything embedded in me.


And now I don’t want to go.


Thank you, anger, my knight in white hot flames.

I’m me for the time being.

When happiness had abandoned me as a lost cause

You swept in to take its place.

I know it’s wrong

But I’m so glad

To be angry with you.